The end of 2011

The end of 2011 is nigh, and I thank the cosmos for that.  It’s been a pretty shitty year as a general whole, and I am ready for it to be over.  I want to start fresh, and make some new strides in my life come 2012.

The only truly good things that happened this year are that my husband and I bought our first home, I saw (most of) my family this summer/fall, and I made some much needed new friends to get me out of the house.  For those things, I am grateful.

The rest of the year can fucking suck on it.

Moving into 2012, I am desperately hoping I can land a job.  The lack of work has had me depressed, and I haven’t yet reapplied for disability.  I know I need to, but I keep putting it off, as I don’t think I could handle being rejected for it again, even though many people tell me I qualify.

My new neighbor friend gave me the idea to document my tics and happenings throughout my day myself, which is an excellent idea (of course), and I wish that I had thought of it myself….and much sooner.  But, better late than never, I suppose.  When I start doing such, I am hoping that a couple of months of documentation will help with the decision to qualify me for disability assistance.  My husband and I currently have no health insurance, and so I have no medical care for my ailment, even though I need it (a specialist would be ideal).

My other desperate hope is that we can get the money scraped together for my new SD prospect.  We currently do not have the money for him, and the thought of being confined to a wheelchair when out shopping makes me ill.  I do not want that feeling of entrapment.  I’m not ready for it.  The reality is that Straussdog is getting old, and will need to retire shortly, and if I cannot get the money together for the puppy, I will be wheelchair bound for awhile.

I hate the idea,  but I cannot endanger my dog just because I am socially uncomfortable.

The next couple entries will likely involve ringing in the new year, as well as containing some interviews I wish to do with my husband and a friend or two about knowing/living with a person that has a disability and uses a service dog.  And in just a couple of weeks, Twitch & Shout will be celebrating its very first birthday!  I honestly can’t believe it.

Thanks to all of you who have read this blog for the past year.  PLEASE continue to share it, and encourage others to do the same.  Know that I value your taking the time out of your day to read my words.  Words that have felt insignificant and unheard for so long.  It truly is a treasure to me.

Flail on into the new year,
– Classical Spazz


~ by ClassicalSpazz on December 30, 2011.

One Response to “The end of 2011”

  1. You DO need to reapply for disability, but this time, I think you might want to go and get a lawyer ahead of time. Most lawyers who take disability cases only charge if you win your case, and then it’s a portion of your back pay (which dates back to the time you first applied, I believe).

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